I see you. I see me, I see everything. I am such an intuitive person that I can see even the things I don’t want to see. This makes me a visionary even. I see this as an art and a science only I cannot necessarily control it. Currently, in my own life, I like what I am seeing. I like the things that I am choosing. I like the people that I am connecting with. I like how I am around this all, the constant state of flux in my life.
I think the only downside of being so adept at seeing things is when you can see the negativity and the possible outcomes that you might not like. Currently one of my goals is to pay heed to this aspect, to not allow myself to ‘go for’ the things that are simultaneously giving me messages such as, ‘this is not good for you Leslie’. Lord knows i have done that enough in my life.
Getting involved with W was a prime example. and J before that. I knew that these relationships would never satisfy me in the long run, ever. But I did them, was complicit in participating in them. I was wearing blinders to the visionary part of myself. I was being unfair to myself. Right now what I do like is that I am in conversation (you might say) with myself. In a rather constructive on-going dialogue where I am willing to ask myself the hard questions. Willing to let go of things that are screaming out with red flags waving all around. I also have my Ling, my wonder woman, to report to, to get feedback from, to see if I am missing the mark in anyway. To challenge what I seem to think about/know is real.
I am very happy these days, in company of others and on my own.