I forgot that I have a regular place to post things that I think and feel and know. So here I am, months later, and how am I doing? Well in this picture I was quite happy with my sweet Marcus. We were out at Baker Beach in SF and it was a glorious spring day. Marcus was being kind of wishy washy with my about coming out there and I had not even invited him. I was feeling rather frustrated with him and the situation and was kind of thinking about toning things down as I have felt a bit disillusioned with things as they are have been. But then he showed up anyway and we had a lovely few hours out there at Baker Beach. And I really like this picture even thought it only shows part of both of us. But we both look super happy and content. and we were naked, and I feel really comfortable around my sweet Marcus.
I really with things were different than they were. I really wish that I felt differently about the situation, more accepting. I wish I didn’t want more than what the situation could offer. I wish that I was just content with what was. There are moments when I am but also moments of discontent. Alas, that is how it is with my sweet Marcus. Oh but i am so attracted to him and his physical beauty. I am also really attracted to his personality. I like how kind and sweet he is. A bit naive, and a bit grown up. I like us together, how sweet and loving that we have always been. I also like the grrrr factor that we have sexually. I really love that. I wish that we had more time to explore each other sexually. I wish we had more time.